*sigh of relief*

Finally, the confusion is so much less. So he has a girlfriend which is relatively new information but that's okay. because there some time between now and when it could be a possibility. I don't hope that they break up unless he wants to because he should be happy. I do know that my feelings are not QUITE alone. which makes me feel better. i know the feeling of having something and kinda wanting something else. it's rough. i guess we'll just sit and wait and see where we're at when we can be. Until then, ha. it'll just be fun like it has been :). Life has been pretty good. had my knee surgery.. it hurts like a bitch. waiting to get my prescription refilled but the pharmacy keeps being closed! argh. anywho. i'm tired. haven't been sleeping much or very well when i have slept. secret nap.

uhh...

I'm a bit baffled now. For the most part we haven't talked all week. I haven't been at lunch due to different excusals and I haven't had math homework. I miss it and now whenever i ask questions, i get one or two word answers instead of the fun ones that i used to get. It's weird. I'm thinking that maybe he found out from someone or just assumes and now he thinks it's weird. I don't know. i hope that i have math homework soon that i will need help on. maybe i can figure something out from that. anyways, i'm going to west point today. which means that i need to pack and whatnot. good times. later.

mmmmm.

eyes really do sparkle and twinkle. I could see it yesterday evening in his eyes. laughing and smiling are probably the things i love most and i'm pretty sure i share that with at least one other person. GOD, 110 days to go and it seems like FOREVER and a day. i remember when we were in the two hundreds & that doesn't seem like so long ago... so i know it'll go by somewhat fast... but i just feel as if these last, 30 or so have been DRAGGING by. i really hope that he never reads this... because it would be extremely embarassing, especially if he doesn't like me like that... ha. oh well. i have to touch up a history paper... more on this later.